one time only…

why?

this would always be her one-word question each time she’ll have her heart (or dignity) broken.  she would ask herself this over and over again trying to find an answer for why she’s being treated like trash by some people.

well…i can say that she’s one of a kind woman.  she has a career which pays her well, she can buy things she want for herself and for her family.  she’s great to be with, oftentimes misunderstood to be a snob but in reality she’s a good person inside-out.  she does have some flaws too but she tries so hard to make up for it. 

but how come she’d been meeting the wrong people most of the time?  oftentimes, she get’s abused and taken for granted by these people she trusts.  one flaw that she can’t really get rid of is her being so-trusting (or gullible perhaps might be a better word) that a little affection will make her knees melt and feel like she’s really liked, and worst, loved.

not too long ago, she met someone and right there and then, she knew that they are mutually attracted to each other, or perhaps that was just a make-believe.  later on, they had a chance to go out…he treated her well, he was sweet and very attentive to her needs.  he held her hands, kissed and hugged her.  the experience was like all new to her, not because she never had a boyfriend but because it’s been so long since she was treated like a princess.

so again, she trusted somebody. she trusted him…everything was like magic.  they clicked instantly…it was like they knew each other for so long that they are comfortable with each other right away.  she let go of her fears…her reservations…and again she thought that might be her chance to be happy again.

and again, she was wrong. after that night, it’s as if nothing special happened.  and now, she’s again broken…hurt…scared more than ever.  i told her why not ask herself what she’s been doing wrong…maybe she’s at fault too.  maybe she trusts people too much that she’s willing to give everything to somebody she just met.  i know she’s one person who deserves to be loved and treated like a queen, but it makes her weak.  it makes her believe anybody who treats her nice and yet dumps her like hot potato after.

she needs to respect and love herself first…that’s the only way she’ll get to know what she’s worth…so no one will ever take her for granted or abuse her again.

perhaps, that will  be the time that she’ll no longer be a “one-time” or “one-nighter” only type of girl.

~ by iamsutil on March 13, 2008.